After a slumber I woke up to write this testimonial that Puja deserves. After a lot of deliberation 3 months ago, I decided to take her refuge; not because of the dilemma that whether I really needed counseling but more so because of the stigma attached to seeking help from psychologists in India. Anyways... today I am more than happy that I made the right decision and also on time!. When I approached Puja, I had the lowest self-esteem possible; my relationships were falling apart, went into depression intermittently and could never come out of it. I harbored a lot of emotional baggage since childhood; for which I consistently blamed my self. For each and every problem like financial crisis that I saw early in my life, domestic violence, chain smoker and drunkard father...a pathetically weak mother who was insulted and beaten every day. I saw things that I as a child should not have seen. But I always gathered and accumulated a feeling that whatever had happened and is happening is because of me. Anyways childhood passed-somehow. I became more calm and composed as I reached undergrad and then started working as an IT professional. But the emotional baggage that I carried for so long just did not leave me... rather I could not let go any of it. All these started to have an awful impact on my present and brilliant relations that I could make later in life... Again...ridden with habit, I started to blame myself... "I was the cause, Its me ...the problem is me.. I will never be able to do the right thing.. I do not really deserve happiness... I feel guilty when someone appreciates me, I can’t assimilate happiness in life for long, It has always been me...since childhood” And the past daemons never ever left me. They haunted me...they were always there at the back of my mind/subconscious. And when I recalled those incidents that made the emotional burden for me.. I used to become highly charged with emotions, misery used to grip me and I would cry to alleviate. But to no gain. Only after I started the sessions... I was enlightened that childhood does shape you the way you are at present, it plays an extremely important role in making you the person you are today. It impacts your ability to make decisions in present. And unless you make peace with your past, you will never be able to move ahead in life. Mostly just by stating out my fears and past life experiences and critical incidents made me lighter. Things that I had never told anyone... Then the next step of application of EFT was like a medicine. I think its like homeopathy...not fast and effective if your body does not respond to it. And yes initially my mind also did not respond that well to EFT...but with time and persistence...it started to show positive effects. Thanks to Puja who kept harping at it. She was not only non-judgmental, but actually kept listening to me and paid real attention and importance to each and everything that I had to share and in the process we both found out lot of things; like origin of my fear of having relationships, attachment, fear of marriage, living in a family, inability to socialize and make friends, low body confidence, all that surfaced because of talking things out and then alleviating the intensity of emotions by constantly applying EFT. Today, (I will not say I feel like a king), but I am confident. I have actually started to appreciate my looks, my strengths...I give more credit to myself than I used to. And whenever I feel I am getting back into the 'miserable' mode, I use EFT...just like that...when I am walking, brushing my teeth and thinking about something and criticizing myself etc, in class, in market place.. It’s a great tool…for life! I won’t thank Puja because I can’t thank her enough.
Anamika, 24 yrs, Female, Chennai-India, P.G Student